
Three years into our marriage, our love was still strong, but one day, my husband suddenly said to me with a serious look: “I want to sleep alone for a while…” I was stunned and heartbroken. Those words hit me like a shock. I cried, got angry, and tried desperately to stop him, but he remained firm in his decision. In the end, I had no choice but to accept it quietly.
However, uneasiness lingered in my heart. I kept wondering, “Is he seeing someone else?” “Has he grown tired of me?” These thoughts haunted me, robbing me of both sleep and appetite.
One evening, when my husband was away, I finally gathered the courage to hire someone to drill a tiny hole in the corner of his bedroom wall. The following night, my heart raced as I pressed my eye against the hole, trembling all over. What I saw nearly made me collapse in shock. Inside the room, he wasn’t holding another woman. Instead, he was kneeling, surrounded by candles, incense, and an old photograph. Tears streamed down his face as he whispered the name of the woman and sobbed like a lost child.
That woman… she wasn’t a stranger. It was his wedding photo with his first wife, who had passed away five years ago.
I realized then that he wasn’t betraying me, but rather holding on to the memories of a love lost. I had once hoped that my sincere love would replace the past, but I came to understand that some hurts cannot be replaced. I was just a visitor in a home where his heart had already been sealed by yesterday.
In the days that followed, I continued my daily tasks—cooking, washing, and cleaning—but I stopped waiting for embraces or loving words. I simply lived in silence, watching, waiting, and preparing for my decision.
One morning, I placed the divorce papers on the table where he was sitting with his coffee. When he saw them, his eyes widened with surprise. I gave him a weak but determined smile and said: “I understand now, darling. I can’t hold on to a heart that isn’t mine. I’m leaving so you can live your life freely.”
He stayed motionless for a long time, his hands trembling and his eyes bloodshot. But in the end, he said nothing to stop me.
When I left that house, my bag was light, but my chest was heavy. Filled with love, pain, and longing… I also felt lighter because I knew I had made the right decision: I was freeing us both.
On the road ahead, I vowed to live a different life—one where my heart no longer hides behind any shadows. I would learn to value myself and, when the time came, I would search for a pure love meant exclusively for me, one not shared with memories or spirits from the past. This time, I promised myself that I would never lose myself again.