
The light streaming through the floor-to-ceiling windows of our Mahatta house felt anything but warm. It was thin, sharp, and merciless, exposing every drifting speck of dust and every hollow shadow carved into my face.
I barely recognized the woman staring back at me from the mirror. She looked like a stranger who had slipped into my life and borrowed my skin without permission—drawn, emptied, worn down to the bone.
My name is Appa Vape. I was twenty-eight years old, yet my body felt decades older, as though time had suddenly doubled its weight and dropped it squarely onto my shoulders.
Six weeks earlier, I had delivered triplets by emergency cesarean section—three tiny, heartbreakingly fragile baby boys named Leo, Sam, and Noah. Each one was a miracle. Each one was also a relentless demand.
My body no longer felt like my own. Motherhood had reorganized it into unfamiliar shapes, softer where it had once been firm, stretched and mapped by pale silver lines that traced the road my children had taken into the world.
The incision across my abdomen throbbed constantly, a sharp reminder of the surgeon’s split-second decisions that night—choices that had saved four lives: my three sons and the woman I was still struggling to become.
Sleep deprivation pressed down on me like a suffocating fog. If I turned my head too quickly, the room tilted. If I tried to stand without bracing myself, the floor seemed to slide away.
I lived in a state of barely controlled calm, navigating the impossible logistics of caring for three newborns at once. Feedings overlapped. Diapers never ended. Bottles, pumps, monitors, and the relentless echo of cries blurred into one continuous, exhausting rhythm.
Nannies and night nurses came and went, quitting every few weeks, burned out by the sheer intensity of three infants. Even trained professionals, they insisted, had limits they would not cross.
Our four-thousand-square-foot luxury home felt suffocatingly small. Every corner overflowed with bassinets, formula, wipes, pumps, monitors, and three different versions of everything a baby could possibly need.
That morning, I stood in milk-stained pajamas, my hair twisted into a messy knot, dark circles carved beneath my eyes. I rocked one screaming baby in my arms while bouncing the other two in their bouncers with my foot.
And that—precisely that—was the moment my husband, Mark, chose to deliver the final, devastating verdict on our marriage.
He entered the bedroom wearing a freshly pressed charcoal Tom Ford suit, the kind that cost more than most people’s monthly salary. He smelled of expensive cologne and something colder, sharper.
He didn’t glance at the stroller holding our sleeping sons. He didn’t ask how I was feeling. He didn’t offer help.
He looked at me the way one looks at an accounting error.
His eyes traveled slowly, clinically, from my unwashed hair to the bruised shadows under my eyes, to the postpartum compression garment visible beneath my pajama top, to the weight I hadn’t yet lost.
Without ceremony, he dropped a thick cardboard folder onto the pristine duvet. The sound was sharp and final, like a gavel striking wood.
I didn’t need to open it. The words printed on the tab were impossible to miss:
PETITION FOR DISSOLUTION OF MARRIAGE.
Seven years, reduced to cold capital letters.
Mark didn’t bother with polite explanations or lawyer-crafted language about irreconcilable differences. He offered me the raw, unfiltered version of his reasoning, soaked in contempt and aesthetic judgment.
He looked me over again, deliberately, letting his gaze linger on every perceived flaw as though assembling evidence.
“Look at you, Appa,” he said, his voice thick with disgust.
“You look like a scarecrow.
Unkempt. Sloppy. Completely abandoned.”
He adjusted his platinum cufflinks and continued smoothly, “A CEO at my level—a man building a multibillion-dollar company under constant public scrutiny—needs a wife who reflects success, vitality, power, sophistication. Not this… deterioration.”
I blinked slowly, too exhausted to summon anger. My voice rasped from sleepless nights.
“Mark,” I whispered, “I gave birth to three of your children six weeks ago.
Your sons.
Your heirs.”
“You let yourself go in the process,” he replied coldly.
“That’s not my problem.
Your body, your choices, your consequences.
I won’t let them damage my image.”
Then, with the ease of unveiling a new product line, he announced his affair.
“I’m seeing someone else,” he said casually, smoothing his hair and checking his reflection. “Someone who understands the demands of my position and enhances my image instead of destroying it.”
As if summoned on cue, Chloe appeared in the doorway.
His twenty-two-year-old executive assistant. Hired eight months earlier, despite my unease about the way his gaze had lingered during her interview.
She stood there sleek and composed in a designer dress that probably cost more than my first car. Her makeup was flawless. Her hair fell in glossy waves. A small, victorious smile curved her lips.
Mark spoke to me as if I were household staff.
“We’re leaving for the office together. My lawyers will handle the settlement. You can keep the house and the yard. It suits you.”
“I’m tired of the noise, the hormones, the chaos, and the pathetic sight of you wandering around in milk-stained clothes like you’ve given up on life,” he added flatly.
He slid his arm around Chloe’s waist, transforming betrayal into a public upgrade.
The message was unmistakable: my worth to him had been entirely physical. Motherhood had rendered me defective. Disposable.
They left together. Chloe’s heels clicked sharply against the marble floor like tiny hammers. Mark paused only long enough to glance down the hallway where his three sons slept.
The front door closed with a decisive click.
And just like that, one life ended—and another, unchosen, began.